4.21.2012 | 09:36

Tantrums

I used to feel special.

Do you know how many people would love to be with my company? Do you know how many of my friends say that I make them happy? Do you know how many people say they miss me?

You have no idea. Because you don't even ask.

What do you really know about me? Or, what do I really know about you? You don't even know my middle name.

Do you know how much I long for you? Do you know how much I miss you? Do you know how much I love you?

You have no idea. Because you don't ask. Because you don't even care.

You know how long it took us to have a mutual understanding before we officially became a couple? Three months at least. I can say we were better at that stage. You were sweeter at that stage. You make me think if it would still be like this fucked-up scenario had we not stepped up a notch, because...


I used to feel special.



But not anymore.

22 comments:

  1. Greenbreaker, how easy it is for us to be left feeling cold and unappreciated...

    They say never take things for granted.

    So perhaps this implies a new chapter in your life.

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    1. I'm giving him a chance, G. I just want him to know how I feel. Our relationship is unlike any normal relationship. I can't emphasize the struggle that all of the above gives me.

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  2. It is in those days we feel neglected that we must, hold on and remember that such is a temporal phase.a

    Better yet, we must live our own life. Like we used to, when we took our journey alone.

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  3. DMD sa emo bai! But I feel you. There really are people who are kryptonites to us. *hugs*

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  4. bakit nga ganun, nag-iiba na pag naging kayo na. I agree with Mugen, dapat ulit muna tayo masanay na mabuhay ng mag-isa. baka kasi masyado tayong nalunod sa expectation sa relationship. step back a little to see the bigger picture. this too shall pass.

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  5. this is one problem with a relationship built online and so fast....burns faster..:(

    but there are other blessings have come your way as well so there are reasons for you to smile:)

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  6. Don't hold on to something that's hurting you Green. It's unhealthy. :|

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  7. I know the feeling. I used to feel special, too. :(

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  8. I feel for you... ambilis naman... anu ba itey!!! inom nalang tayo!

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  9. you're always special friend, don't let anyone make you feel that you're not :) mwahs!

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  10. you know how relationships are.. but the romantic side of you would always look for a happily ever after..

    we all know it would take so much pain, and neglect, and all that crap to get to your fairytale ending..

    *bearhugs*

    you're a butterfly.. and a monarch one, for that matter.. so go flutter by, and embrace your awesomeness and your being special.. by then, mare-realize nya, "yeah.. you're special.."

    or...

    baka naman kasi you're too "out there" with your feelings about him.. na-smother sya.. baka hindi sya sanay..

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  11. Oh this is sad...now lang ulit ako nakabalik sad ka pa...

    U will be alright, i know :-)

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  12. Hi! I have awarded you the Versatile Blogger Award.

    Check out my post here: http://xiangarvida.blogspot.com/2012/04/versatile-blogger-award.html

    Cheers!

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  13. Brad,

    Knowing part of your history...okay lang ba sapakin to?ipapaair-mail ko nalang :/

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    1. better have it on door to door delivery. LOL

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  14. i can relate.. mine was a whirlwind..
    *hugs

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  15. So Joe, what happens next?

    Kane

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so... what's your take on it?

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